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halcyon days

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to me, you became a matter
of timing and space: how long
until you left and how far
would you go? in the learning,
i left behind
the howling of coyotes
and summer hail for the lonely
ocean; i was not there when
you left, too.

there is still farther to go.

for you, i became a field.
i grew the sadness in me like
a monster, nursed it like a secret,
cradled it like a lover, let
it out only while you were in
the other room. i held you pressed
into the creases of my elbows
and lined your home
with heart cells.

still, i do not miss you like i should.

you said: this is far enough
and this will be my home now. you
brought out your grave and showed it
to me, spoke of the life you did
not regret, something i know nothing
about. i found you too late and
left too often, but you always knew
me when i came back. i wanted you
to be with me always, even
as i let you go.

i hope the pacific soul is yours forever.
i hope that you are happy still.
all i could do was cry and cry and cry and let you leave.

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QuirkyCuriousBex's avatar
My goodness, this is painful and real. A gem, for sure. I've been missing your work. :heart: