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~EsotericHeart

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About Me Member Wannabe Poet ஐ17/Female/Canada Recent Activity Deviant for 11 Months
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lypophrenialately everything has felt wrongwrongwrong or maybe it's that i'm not acting right, because when have i ever been right? but maybe it's because these days it's like i'm not even here or i'm shrinking until i can't fill out my own skin anymore or i start shaking until houses begin to collapse or maybe it's that i start crying because nothing's right, nothing's right, nothing's right anymore, and it feels like it never will be.   
no, it's starting to feel like a full breath in will never fill up my lungs, so i'm always just a little bit early compared to everyone else or maybe infinitely late, but either way i can't be in sync. somet lypophrenia
by ~EsotericHeart
35. Hold My Handwe span the spaces between  yesterday and forever,  our suicide cells stretched too  thin to hold us together.  we're ignoring our boundaries  and crashing through our breaking  points; now there is nothing  between us anymore.  [and there never was.]   
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snapping leaf spines and green  veins freezing shut, winter  sets into our hollow bird bones  while the sparrows dance  in snowstorms. we turn within  ourselves, teeth chattering and  we can't speak now, a rioting  peace of mind lost behind  carefully blank eyes.  today, i wished for 35. Hold My Hand
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63. Do Not Disturbashes floating in choked  larynges, we breathe in the  taste of cemeteries and  rotted wood. there is life  here in death, and all you  have to do is die  to find it.   
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in this sense of non-time  we've got the future trapped  in a box. cacophonies of  shivering branches and  howling winds blow past,  but it's easier than you think  to wake the dead.   
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stars bleed hallucinatory  colours and the earth begins  to break in time to sunset.  tell me, am i enough  for you now?   
 63. Do Not Disturb
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grey girlthese days you're just a  rabbit-hearted girl living  in a fucked-up world.   
 grey girl
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it always hurts.
by *twelvedaysofjune
turn your back to loveoh, fingers crossed you don't see me,  heaven forbid you hear me  today i am flying,   
i have no wings but an extraordinary  sense of delusion and i feel beautiful,  does that make you happy?   
i cannot keep fighting,  i give i give i give i give  i give i give i give  up  goes my heart,   
strangling in my throat,  it's a false sea monster  under equally false pretenses,   
i hope you know i love you  to death, til death, past death  but death is so abstract  to me, dear,  death is a seashell pressed to my ear   
it is no turn your back to love
by *ohsostarryeyed
a letter from not-georgehello,  my name is not george,  i do not have a penis,  i am not important, but i do  have a heart and i would like  to spill it like an alcoholic's  vomit over your new shoes.   
if you know a girl called amy, any girl called amy,  tell her that the pills will never work  enough; she will always throb and scream,  and tell her she will break every time a  man has sex with her and the forty bucks  she gets will never make it ok.   
i knew a boy named harry once,  he was the sort of beautiful soul you never  expected to see, and normally you  never would a letter from not-george
by *ohsostarryeyed
the marigold benchin faded delirium the order of the world dissembles. it is my mind, replicated endlessly, mitotic and slippery, paint cradling reality in soft palms.   
here is the sky, pink at noon and blue at sunset, black at darkest night with stars soaked in its ebony skin.   
a boy in his attractive pallor is on his bench, shifting from alertly thoughtful to a slouched spine and heavy head in heartfelt hands. he watches the world.   
until my thoughts wrapped their arms around the hips of reality, the boy was alone.  
 
busy legs would shuttle past his static form, dress-pant thighs rubbing against one another. he the marigold bench
by *ohsostarryeyed
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Behind the Sea

Thu Oct 22, 2009, 10:59 PM
Hi there guyyssss.
I haven't been around much, I know. Oh well.

In other news, I am officially seventeen. : D
*is so old* DD:
So yeah. At least I have no school today!!

Umm. What else. School has been keeping me mega-busy. Stupid senior year. But, I guess I enjoy it. Would much rather do this than go have a life in the real world.
Anyway, it's the reason I haven't had much time to write and update and just in general, be on dA.
Though I am on the computer like, 24/7, which probably isn't healthy. At all. But oh well. I like my internet, thx.

OH. AND I PASSED MY ROAD TEST, SO I CAN NOW OFFICIALLY DRIVE . . . BUT WITHOUT INSURANCE. I should get on that, actually.

Mmmmmm. I kind of can't think of anything else. I'm tired.

And now, a favourite song of mine!
I adore this song. I can listen to it on repeat allll day.
--
Northern Downpour by Panic! at the Disco
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If all our life is but a dream
Fantastic posing greed
Then we should feed our jewelry to the sea
For diamonds do appear to be
Just like broken glass to me

And then she said she can't believe
Genius only comes along in
Storms of fabled foreign tongues
Tripping eyes and flooded lungs
Northern downpour sends its love

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down
Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weather vanes my one and lonely

The ink is running toward the page
It's chasing off the days
Look back at boat feet
And that winding knee
I missed your skin when you were east
You clicked your heels and wished for me

Through playful lips made of yarn
That fragile Capricorn
Unravelled words like moths upon old scarves
I know the world's a broken bone
But melt your headaches, call it home

Hey moon, please forget to fall down
Hey moon, don't you go down
Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weather vanes my one and lonely

Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weather vanes my one and lonely
Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weather vanes my one and lonely

Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weather vanes my one and lonely
Sugarcane in the easy morning
Weather vanes my one and lonely

Sugarcane in the easy morning
(Hey moon, please forget to fall down)
Weather vanes my one and lonely
(Hey moon, don't you go down)

Sugarcane in the easy morning
(You are at the top of my lungs)
Weather vanes my one and lonely
(Drawn to the ones who never yawn)

Sugarcane in the easy morning
(Hey moon, please forget to fall down)
Weather vanes my one and lonely
(Hey moon, don't you go down)

Sugarcane in the easy morning
(You are at the top of my lungs)
Weather vanes my one and lonely
(Drawn to the ones who never yawn)



46 Comments | Previous Journal Entries
  • Mood: Euphoric
  • Listening to: Panic! at the Disco
  • Reading: between the lines
  • Watching: years tick by
  • Playing: with ideas
  • Eating: thoughts
  • Drinking: hot chocolate

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: among the stars
  • Interests: people; books; writings
  • Favourite movie: Peter Pan [Not Disney]
  • Favourite gaming platform: PlayStation 2
  • Favourite cartoon character: Winnie the Pooh ♥
  • Tools of the Trade: my mind

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~HelzCullen Oct 25, 2009, 5:55:51 AM
HAPPY DAYAFTERYOUR BIRTHDAYYYYYY!!!!!!!!

YEAHH
WOO!

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~HelzCullen Oct 26, 2009, 10:13:24 AM
So, I hear you like Ellington... :iconthinkingplz:

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~HelzCullen Oct 28, 2009, 1:20:34 PM
I LIKE YOU!

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